By: Lorraine Cooke

Everyone’s version of what God means or how they perceive him is different. Mine started when I attended Sunday school as a child. Back in the 1960’s everyone seemed to go to church and I did enjoy a lot of my time there. But by the time I was 15, I was questioning who this ‘man’ was, that we can’t actually see, and what is he doing for me. How is he helping me? Do I actually believe in him? I didn’t attend church again then until I got married. I felt like a hypocrite over that. But it was an unforeseen family tragedy that was to steer me in an alternate direction and really challenge my faith in whatever ‘God’ is.

My sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. In those days you had to stay in hospital for a week. So we didn’t think anything of it when they said they would do some tests on her. Soon after, we had the news that she had breast cancer. We were all devastated. She started to have radiotherapy but within six months she had passed away. She was 25 years old.

I had prayed and prayed to God, that she would live. I had such faith, that I actually believed she would not die. So when she passed, we were all desperate in our grief. Maybe this is when I should have turned to God more, but instead I turned against him for taking my sister from her family.

As the years pass, you come to terms with grief and you continue to build your life. As I was getting older, I started to think more about my own spirituality and what it meant for me.  At that point, when I so needed it, I was introduced to Sue Zange’s training courses. I had not heard of Energy Field Healing, so was intrigued.

I trained with Sue in 2004. It was the start of my own deep self-healing. You can’t heal others unless you heal yourself first. That is not always easy, and at times it can be quite painful.  I even found meditation a challenge at first, but I kept going and eventually I was able to focus and sit for longer periods of time.

In learning about the body’s energy, meditation and healing, I found my mind expanding and changing. Sometimes when pain is deep, it tucks and folds itself away in the deepest recess of the heart and mind. As I started to heal myself with the techniques I learned, it became clear to me that there was so much more to me than the physical presence.

Through healing, I have transformed the most painful aspects of my life – wounds that have sat in my energy, waiting for me to acknowledge their effect on my daily life. I came to see God not as a ‘man’, but as this most wonderful light source that can transform the most dense and heavy energies.

It was looking within, through meditation and healing, that I found my God/source light. It is a personal perspective, a deeper faith that I can feel and be happy with. You can only comprehend it when you truly feel it.

The energy teachings allowed me a wider perspective. And I am more than happy for Source to be my wingman.

God Bless,
Lorraine